I Can't Find Myself Again

So Here I stand
On nothing but air
Waiting for you
And life to be fair

But here's the truth
Life loved you first

Now here I lay
Dreaming of you
And things we used to do
But for me life never changed
Everything there was was simply rearranged

And this I know
I'd always go
To hell and back for you

Here's the spot
Take the plunge
This is what I do

Cause here's the truth
Life loved you first
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I thought I figured it out
This time there was no doubt

Last I saw you standing there
I try to pretend that I dont even care

But this is the thing
That I'll tell you today
I don't know if I'll ever be okay

Because the longer I wait for you
More stupid things I'm bound to do

And I try to figure out...you
What you're always thinkin about...me
When you hear my name
When you see my face
What's runnin through your brain
And is that always the case?

And I wish I could know
What's in your head
When you close your eyes
Lyin in your bed

So here I stand
Guessin again

And here I wait
Again and again and again
Waitin for you

And I try to figure out...you
what you're always thinkin about...me
When you hear my name
When you see my face
What's runnin through your brain
And is that always the case?

And I try to figure out...you
What you're always thinkin about...me
When I hear your name
Is is always the case?
Because I see that doubt hiding in your face