Thought Provoking Insightful Nothings

Curiosity killed the cat. Or so they say. The funny thing about that is cats have nine lives right? So even if curiosity killed the cat, I bet that cat pretty well satisfied his curiosity before he died all nine times.

Moral of the story everyone has a conscience, everyone knows whats right and wrong and everybody can tell when they've pushed too far.

That being said, satisfy curiosity, ask the tough questions, when something is sitting there daring you to figure it out, don't sidestep the problem. Don't find workaround solutions. Try those solutions that make you curious. You may just be surprised.

Song: Goo Goo Dolls - Become

Not Despair, Just Curiosity

Regrets are a part of life. As much as I would love to say that I've lived life with no regrets I don't think I can honestly say that. Everyone has at least one thing that they regret happening in their lives...(I'm just thinking about this as I'm typing).

I guess the trick is not to focus on the regrets. Let them go and move on with bigger and better things.

But there are some things that I'm curious. There are some things that I don't know if I would regret or not. Everybody goes through this a million times a day I guess now that I think about it.

It's called making decisions. Every decision has two sides too it. Every decision you make has a chance to be a regret. But then again, every decision you make could potentially make your life better than you ever thought it could be.

So here's to everything always working out for the best. Here's to choosing the good over the bad. Here's to decisions.

Song: Goo Goo Dolls - Better Days

It's Just Not the Same Since You Went Away

There is just nobody here this weekend. Nobody. If they are here, they have sports.Thats ok though. I needed a chance to get my financial aid stuff done. That's all pretty much done just need to polish off all the details on Monday and Tuesday. Then I can renew loans or whatever I have to do for that and hopefully get the extra for my new laptop.

I'm planning on putting the majority of my money from jobs this summer into savings. I really need to start doing better with my money.

So, watch some baseball/softball, weightlift for a couple hours, eat, clean the room, find something to do for a little bit, watch a movie and probably go to bed.

Then church tommorrow and I have to do some stuff for my speech group assignment, maybe some chemistry, and I need to catch up on all my religion assignments. That should cover it all.

I watched Just Friends this morning because I couldn't sleep. What a stupid movie. Wow, that was really dumb. I really have a knack for getting shitty movies.

Song: Brad Paisley - The World

Honolulu Leis

My new weightlifting straps should be coming in the next couple of days here. It's funny the reaction I get from people when I tell them that that's one of the things I got for my birthday. It's extra funny because I'm really excited about getting them and everyone I tell has a reaction of 'Oh...cool...' as they roll their eyes.

I think I wanna go on a bike ride or something this weekend. It's so nice out. Maybe I'll just move my room outside and sleep and live out there.

What do you think of college is? It really isn't to learn that much stuff. When you think about it, here's what happens when you go get a job.

Oh you have a college degree of who knows what. That's good, we like college degree here at SOBs Inc. Now, since you're college degree most likely didn't prepare you for jackshit of what we're doing here we'll be training you for the first few weeks. Wow, your grades weren't even that good. It's a good thing that the only reason you even have a job here is because of who you know and has nothing at all to do with your schooling.

Am I right? It doesn't matter what you learn in college. As long you get B's or so in most of your classes and end up graduating. People see you have a college degree and they say ok, you're hired. Because like the example above. It's all about who you know. Prove me wrong.

Y'know what'd be fun? I want to see a blueprint of my life. Or even just a glimpse of me in 10 years. I want to know. I want to know what I should be doing with my time now. Am I making the best of it? Am I completely wasting my time? I guess I'll never know until 10 years from now. The trip's proved interesting so far.

Song: Goo Goo Dolls - No One's Listening

Back Safely?

I love pranks. Now you're waiting for me to tell you about some really good, funny prank I pulled aren't you? Umm...I didn't...I just thought that this cartoon was funny. It reminded me of how much I loved pranks, so I thought I'd mention that. But if anyone does have any good prank ideas, please feel free. I'd love to hear them.

I just got a letter today from someone I haven't heard from in probably about a year or more now. I love it. It was 3 pages long, front and back. That's six pages of writing. I love that. Usually It's me writing the six pages worth of stuff and getting maybe a paragraph in return. I wrote 1 page front and back and thought it was good and this person comes back with six freakin' pages. It pretty much made my day. Although I have to wonder how long that it's been sitting in my mailbox. It probably got here last Thursday while I was at home.

Therefore my list of things to do tonight is...Chemistry, unpack and clean my room, and write a letter back. Maybe history, maybe.

I just got an email from someone else now about where I may work this summer. It's pretty much up in the air right now. God I wish everything was just set out. I don't know how some people have their lives figured out so well already. It's insane. I don't even know where I can get a summer job right now.

Ah well, it's 64 and sunny out, who cares about everything else. God I love spring.

Song: John Michael Montgomery - Be My Baby Tonight

Fish and Nuts

Oh I wish I understood things...I will just work on not showing that. Smile and keep on going. I read somewhere that if you act happy eventually it just catches on to you and you can't help but be happy. That's going to be my goal this week. Just make myself happy, no matter what. It actually worked pretty good today. So my hopes are high.

Has anyone ever tried chocolate and banana cake? Apparently it's not too popular. I think it's delicious. People are just afraid to try new things I think. Just give new things a shot, you'd be surprised. I read a book over break...how's that for new? Yeah that's right ME...READING.

Speaking of trying new things, I wanna try bullriding. Anybody with me? Seriously. It looks like so much fun. You can't deny it. The pain factor might scare some people away, but hey, that's the price you may have to pay. But maybe not. It's all up in the air until you try it.

That's my advice for the week. Go try something new. Anything. It doesn't have to be food. Whatever. Just try something new.

I've heard this song 5 times today. And it's still stuck in my frickin' head. Get it out!

Song: Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Broken Twigs and Raked Leaves

So it looks like I'm going to get my new laptop as soon as I can get my loans all figured out for next year. That should give me some energy and interest to doing that.

I'm trying to decide between three laptops right now, so far anyone who's reading this and is into computer stuff at all feel free to add your opinion. I'm trying to decide between two Sagers, the 3880 and the 5320 and the ASUS A8Jm.

Tommorrow should be a good day. Easter service in the morning, get some work done (taxes) in the afternoon, and early birthday dinner in the evening (YES!). So all in all, looking forward to it.

I was just watching ESPN2 Boxing. Peter Manfredo Jr (who I actually completely hate) was fighting Sergio Mora. Manfredo got completely screwed. It was a split decision going to Mora. But Manfredo landed alot more punches than Mora who was on the defensive the entire fight. Everybody knew that Manfredo won, except, it seemed, the judges.

Just thought I'd throw that in there. I don't like it when boxing comes down to judges decisions. It's so subjective. It was in Mora's hometown. Not saying that had anything to do with it but...I hate to see a boxer get screwed over like that. Have you ever tried boxing? Just go up to a punching bag for maybe a minute and keep punching and circling it. You'll be dead tired. It's hard stuff.

Song: Brad Paisley - Mud On the Tires

I Can Feel It

“If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams and endeavors to live the life he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.” - Henry David Thoreau

I sat out in the sun today for a couple of hours reading. Reading...me...what is going on? It was really nice though. Incredibly relaxing, it was 70 degrees out and amazing. I hope tommorrow is just as nice.

That quote is a quote that is in the book I was reading. I should read more. It really gets you thinking, about good stuff instead of stupid pointless stuff that when all taken into account, doesn't really matter.

It's funny how much time we waste thinking about and doing stuff that really doesn't matter. If I myself, and we, as a general population of human beings, were more productive with our time, I can't even imagine the results.

Of course if there is anyone reading this that knows me they are probably thinking 'who is he to talk?!' because I, admittedly, waste as much time as anybody.

More and more as I think about what I want to do my life I find myself being led in different directions. But I don't think that that is necessarily a bad thing either. The more I think about wanting to do something with computers the more I think that the 'something' I want to do may involve business to the point of being pointedly focused more on business than computers themselves.

Song: Weezer - Island in the Sun

You got me in a spin but everything is A-OK

Oh my God, this day has the potential to be really really bad. Just took a chemistry test, I've never taken a worse test in my life. I mean I've taken bad tests but damn...90% of my test time was sitting there chewing on my pen trying to figure out how I could BS my way through the problems. Usually I can BS my way through the math on Chem tests but there was too much chem and not enough math on this one.

I have a history test in about an hour and a half so that could make my day even worse.

All I know is that I need more sleep. I addressed emails to myself this morning and actually sent one of them to myself before I realized what I had done. I wouldn't have even realized it if I wouldn't have hit the refresh button on accident. Oh well, I have 2 more days left here, I will make the most of them and sleep when I go home, and on the car ride home. Definetly on the car ride home.

But guess what? I DON'T CARE! It's 65 degrees out right now and by this afternoon it's supposed to get above 70 degrees! I can make up for chem on the final which I assure you will be a B or higher. And History...well, hopefully I can pull off a C on this one.

Tommorrow it's supposed to be just as nice outside. The day after that I go home. Therefore this is actually gonna be a pretty good week minus today. It's funny, I want to go home, I'm looking forward to it. But by the time I come back next Monday I'll have wanted to leave for about 3 days I bet.

I wish I knew where I was going with all this college stuff. The odds of me staying here for more than next year are pretty slim. If I go with a computer major. Although I'm really interested in taking psychology next year. I'm not sure if I want to be interested in it or not. That'll just complicate things if I get interested in that instead of computers. But I already find the different ways people think about things and approach situations interesting.

It's weird how a situation can be percieved so much differently by every single person who views it. I love listening to people just tell me what they think about things that are happening. It's interesting to hear the different points they bring up and emphasize.

Song: Bowling for Soup - Get Happy

I Don't Think that they'd Understand

Somtimes I wish I was this stupid. I think it would actually probably make things easier. I'd never get dissapointed. Maybe I should work on being dumber. Is it really dumb though?
Maybe he is just that self confident. I used to have self confidence. I just didn't let shit get to me. Just brushed it off, because who cares? These days, it self confidence doesn't come too easily.

Song: Lit - Miserable

Mystery no More

Ah naps are great. So refreshing. That's like this whole week right there. Just...refreshing. Waking up from a nap is just great. Especially when you realize that you don't have to eat crappy cafeteria food tonight for supper because you're grandparents are taking you out to dinner. Yes!

Do you ever look at a word that is really normal and used all the time and all the sudden question if you're spelling it right. I was just writing the title for this post and mystery seemed like such a weird word. Like it shouldn't be spelled that way or anything. Weird.

Almost the weekend. Thank God for that. I decided that I'm going to write a commemorative speech about my dog. I didn't even really like this dog that much though. Oh well. Sometimes I think that colleges just make you take some of these classes so that they can make you spend more money. Honestly, I had a speech class in high school. It's nothing new. You get up in front of people and talk.

That reminds me of the beginning of the semester. My speech teacher was campaigning for a listening class. He thinks that it would be even more important than a speech class. People learn to listen on their own. They won't listen if they don't want to. That's just life. Deal with it.

Song: Travis Tritt - It's a Great Day to be Alive

All the World is Waiting

Last night I went to bed convinced that today was going to be a really good day. I wake up to not my alarm but my roommates alarm an hour before mine is set to go off. So I hit the bed a couple of times thinking he's up there. Nothing, alarm's still going off. So I kick the bed. Bad idea. There's a lot of little sharp metal ends, right into my foot.

It really sucks how a bad morning can just ruin your day. I guess it just kind of woke me up on the wrong side of the bed so to speak. So now I think I will go take a nap and try to wake up this time on the right side of the bed.

Song: Breaking Benjamin - Rain

Consider Yourself Rung

I am just awesome at picking out good movies lately. While not quite as pointless as Lost in Translation, Ring Around the Rosie is definetly a very close second. The main plot tells a story about a woman who inherits a house that brings back old horrible memories in the form of very vivid nightmares. Is it scary? Not really. Does it make sense? Not really.

The movie seemed as if the director took a bunch of shots and randomly put them together. Nothing really makes sense and nothing really seems like it even has a place in the movie. But hey, if my movie choices serve me right lately, since when were movies supposed to have a point to them?

According to my daily temperature reading today got up to sixty-six degrees. Can you believe that? Unfortuanetly Michigan's forecast is about ten degrees lower so I guess I should enjoy it before I go home. Ah home. It'll be nice to relax for a few days even if it is only a few days. I just need to make it through another speech and two more tests before then.

Do yourself a favor and listen to this song, it's a classic, I love it.

Song: Billy Joel - For the Longest Time

Past America's Pastime

Why baseball? Out of any sport in the world we could pick to represent our nation as a whole we pick baseball? I guess it fits for the stereotypical American. Pick a sport which is the easiest to play when you are fat and out of shape. Yeah, that works pretty good. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying baseball is easy. It takes alot of technique, in fact, I'm horrible at it. But it doesn't take being in shape. Which is, I guess, what makes it the perfect sport for Americans. I can't wait to hear the reactions to this one.

One of my friends told me that they drove three hours last weekend to watch their college baseball team play. I thought, not only did they waste six hours driving but they wasted the rest of the day watching. I could think of a million better things to do with a weekend. Actually I couldn't, if anyone can, please let me know.

Now, you may be wondering, why I am writing about baseball if I hate it so much. Well, it just happens that it is almost 55 degrees outside. I couldn't pass up the opportunity to go outside. I love sun and warmness, it's great.

Song: Rascal Flatts - Nothing

Please Don't Award My Movie

Lost in Translation is a movie about...well...absolutely nothing. Two American's (Bill Murray and Scarlett Johansson) are in Tokyo and they meet. They might fall in love, I'm not quite sure. Nothing happens really. They talk about who knows what a couple of times. They go visit a couple of clubs in Tokyo.

I watched the entire movie out of sheer curiosity of why the heck it had apparently been nominated for two Academy Awards. Nothing ever happened though. I honestly found no point at all to this movie.

However it did come to strengthen my belief that if a movie gets an Academy Award, it's probably not worth watching. It seems like most movies that get these awards are just mind-numbingly boring. Here are a couple examples: Lord of the Rings (It may have good battle scenes but when it takes 3 hours to get to them..) Moulin Rouge (Have you seen it?)...I mean c'mon...where are the good movies? You tell me. These movies may have good storylines...if anyone can stay awake long enough to get to the point...if there is one.

Through My Eyes

Ah Mondays...Ah Mondays after I stay up until 3:30 AM. I missed my speech class and my chemistry class this morning. Good start to the week huh? I now have to write a speech about, well, I'm not exactly sure yet, but I give it Friday.

Isn't it weird how you can have a completely crappy day but if it's nice out it doesn't even feel that bad. And the opposite. You can have a great day, but if the weather sucks the day sucks still. With that in mind I want to know who in the world actually likes winter? Why? Spring and summer are the epitome of seasons.

Mondays are so busy. School, Nap, Work out, Eat, Student Senate. Monday free time usually starts around 10 or so. Although with the weather getting better and better naps will be forgotten in place of playing football or catch or just being outside in general. More to come later tonight, maybe a couple of movie reviews...You can't wait, don't lie

Song: Chronic Future - Time and Time Again